On The Verge Of Letting It Go

It's with a heavy heart that I say that. Because I have put MUCH time and energy in to that blog. I have never made it a "secret" of my belief in the Paranormal or of the things I have personally witnessed and/or experienced.

I've done pieces on various *reportedly and infamously* haunted places. Done writings on various Paranormal topics, and have openly discussed my own experiences or those of my husband and children.

ParanorMel is primarily centered around the topics of ghosts and hauntings. But I have been known to speak of other things such as UFOs and aliens.

Personally, I feel that I have done pretty much everything that I can to "attract" readers and readership. But alas obviously, to no avail.

So, I'm at a point now that if my efforts of piecing together posts on that blog (which CAN and HAVE been tedious to do, depending on need of information or media availability such as videos) are in so-called "vain" then I'm wondering why I'm doing it? It's most certainly not to hear myself talk (so to speak). But to educate others, let others think for themselves and have the opportunity to voice THEIR views and opinions without ridicule or being called nuts or crazy for their beliefs and what they themselves may have experienced within the Paranormal realm.

Honestly, I don't care if you (generally speaking) have a difference of opinion or view. As long as you state your difference in a manner of civility and respectfulness, then I say POST IT and be HEARD. I'm a big girl and I know that I will NEVER always "be right" or will always have people agree with what I see, think and feel about the subject. That's not how life works.

ParanorMel was started as a way to let others see that they are NOT alone in their quest for answers in the world of the "unknown" and as a way for me to document personal experiences of (primarily) myself and of my kids, whom have had experiences of one kind or another since toddler-hood.

I enjoy sharing the stories of experiences with my readers. But when you don't hear from anyone about 99% of the time about what you have written, it's (I feel) time to let it go and move on. And it saddens me that I have come to this point with that blog, seeing as I LOVE journaling there about the Paranormal.

But at what "price" to myself and MY TIME? I take time out of MY day to write posts, some of which CAN and have taken as much as 45 minutes to write, depending on the subject and what media content I wish to place in the piece. And to have my work subsequently 'ignored' 99% out of 100% of the time, to me is obscene and a proverbial "slap in the face" to me and my work.

My time could be better well spent, in all honesty. But I write for various reasons. And in ParanorMel, I write as to give others hope, reassurance, and to see what my "paranormal life" is like.

With that said, I feel that it may be time to "close up shop" over on that blog and call it a day. Thoughts?

***SIDE NOTE... This post will be *duplicated* in to ParanorMel as well.***

What I Meant To Say Wednesday (1st try)

What I said on Facebook : Melissa Thomas Cowart is ready to go to the Funny Farm now. I'm so freaking SICK of this 'closed" junk when all the LCS system had to do was DELAY one or two hours. There is honestly NO excuse for making these kids stay home AGAIN. This is making almost 2 weeks STRAIGHT of no school. Monday was an exception. They actually WENT after an hour delay.

What I MEANT to say : You sorry SOB's are once again making us parents go frigging insane with once again NEEDLESSLY closing school. Ever hear of f'ing ONE/TWO HOUR delays to let the ice on the road melt?! HELLO! Cars are whizzing by my home as if NOTHING is out there. And I'm a 5 min. walk to one of the said schools you idiots. 




What I said to the kids this morning : 'How many times will I need to repeat about jumping on my couch, which you know is NOT allowed?'


What I MEANT to say : Damn it all! Why don't you sit the hell down, shut the hell up and Hayley, bring me a beer? I swear, these two weeks of living hell have taken its toll. I'm about to ship you off to a damn boot camp for kids. Who wants to screw with Mama some more? Now STOP....JUMPING....ON...THE....DAMN....F-U-R-N-I-T-U-R-E!!!!!!


What I said to my husband this morning on the phone when he asked about school : "What do you think? Of course they are out AGAIN from school. I got the call (again) at almost 6 this morning.


What I MEANT to say : Are you stupid or something? Did you eat it for breakfast there at work? Of course they are CLOSED. Why else would my voice sound like I'm in a "puhleeeeeez help me" tone. Especially knowing our 4 year old nephew must come and bring more joyous hell to my home and drive me f'ing insane for the next 6 hours of my life.


What I said on FaceBook in response to something from a friend's post where another of her friends went after me :  *****, forgive me if I'm wrong, but who is to say I don't know what I'm talking about? Do you know me or my life? I'm pretty sure not. I made no reference either to any specific person. Are you guilty of which I speak above? Because you seem mighty defensive.

What I MEANT to say : For a Preacher's wife, you are the most egotistical, self-centered, uncompassionate BITCH I ever have had the displeasure to run in to. How DARE you tell me I don't know what I'm talking about. You know NOTHING of me you two-bit excuse for a Christian. If you knew ANY of what my life had been or is like, you would have been smart to just keep your fat-ass trap shut and go on somewhere.